It has been a week....

Wow. Where do I even start? So many emotions that have been racing through me.  It is absolutely incredible and bizarre how one moment can change your entire life.  It is a great reflection on the little things that you take for granted that you really shouldn't. The emotion I have faced the most is that I just MISS HIM so deeply. I miss the oddest things, like watching him shave or choose what shoes to wear - (his rainbow flipflops usually won out), or  seeing him sound asleep, or playing with his beloved and dorky I-phone, ok, I admit it is a pretty sweet phone.  And I miss our ten o'clock dates every night when we would climb into bed and read "The Love Dare" book, which is the BEST book for marriage I have ever read. And then we would spend some time talking about our relationship, our strengths and weaknesses and how our marriage ties so intricately into our relationship with the Lord.  We most certainly didn't have the perfect marriage, who does? But it was wonderful and so much fun.  

This is the most difficult journey I have ever had to walk.  But what God is doing with such a terrible situation is so incredible and beautiful. It helps me get through each day. Preston often quoted the verse, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose" - Romans 8:28

And through the MANY lives that have been touched by Preston and our situation, God's purpose is so evident.  He wants to change lives! Yours and mine. I am not God and do not know the full extent of what his purpose is, but there is no doubt that part of his plan is to make himself known. That makes me super excited because I have a relationship with Him and I know how amazing and fulfilling it is so of course I want everyone to experience the same lasting joy and hope I and many others have.  Wouldn't it be selfish and ridiculous of me if I had the cure to cancer but I was too scared or nervous to share it with someone who was dying from the disease? Well it is too selfish of me to let you die and not to share Jesus Christ with you.  If you want to look more into this check out, www.needgod.com 

Someone shared this verse with me that is entirely fitting, "Now I want you to know brothers that what has happened to me has really served to advance the Gospel" - Philippians 1:12  Paul wrote this when he was chained in prison. Terrible circumstance, but the ultimate and perfect good came from it.  I have really crazy circumstances, but if the gospel is being shared then it is worth it.

THANKYOU SO SO SO MUCH to everyone who has loved and supported us!! From your comments, to your emails, texts, phone calls, hugs and tasty meals.  What a legacy Jacob and baby #2 will be able to look back on, not just that their father was an amazing man, but also that people loved and supported us in our biggest moment of need.

"I am he, I am he who will sustain you.

I have made you and I will carry you;

I will sustain you and I will rescue you." - Isaiah 46:4

"I lift up my eyes to the hills - 

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD,

the maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 121